Rofl, I haven't been updating for close to 5 months! :X
Hais, sec 3 is okay.. but then..
For sure.. I'm very screwed for Geography, Social Studies/History.
I couldn't understand a single bit of Geography..
so depressing x.x! For social studies, I totally don't get it! :@
The worst is I can't understand the principles of governance etcttc.
Which is like WTF!

I wonder if we could feel the same way..
or maybe its just only a damned one-sided thing..
I hate myself.
Why must it be like this?!
Its really ironic that lovers turn to strangers,
best friends turn into enemies.
Well, I bet I can't trust you anymore.
I seriously can't bring myself to..
You're just despo for attention eh!?

Long time since i last posted.. and exams are round the corner..
tests are failing and haish. :/..

You ..!! you think i can forgive you that easily?! Nah not so easy. I bet you don't know how much i hate you.




"Conceal all feelings and wear a mask.
Lock all doors and shut yourself.
Use a needle and sew your mouth.
Take your heart and chain it up."

Started schooling already D:.Holidays just went by so fast.. A start of a new term, a new semester.

Hais, I don't like the new sitting place.. its freaking .. crammed.. and worst, i think there's not enough space.. sians.

Woah.. there's quite a few new teachers teaching 2B .. Hope they .. are nice teachers.. T.T

Miss Ina is our PW teacher ^_^. She's really nice ~ Mr Yuen is our english/lit teacher~ Though he's strict, he still jokes xD! His lessons are quite funny . I think I quite enjoyed his lessons.. other than I think I have to lengthen my skirt... but the new school skirt's standard length is ABOVE my KNEE.. -_-" .. Waste money to lengthen.. Oh well.. Today's not as bad as I thought xD!

I wish you won't hate me.. I can't help you this time round.. I have really no choice.. The paper is counted.. and everyone's fighting for marks.. you've got to understand that.. I am so sorry..

Now I ask myself..
For Disney's Cinderella,
Did Cinderella know that the prince would save her and she dropped her glass shoe ?
For Shakespear's Romeo and Juliet,
Did they both die in the end because they knew that they could be together ?
If life was writing a book, I hope mine doesn't turn out as a tragedy..

Now alot of song's lyrics make sense to me..
" Happiness is stored in a small box rather than the bigger one. "
" Just be friends. "
" Its time to let go without turning back. "
" I was fine until something called 'love' invaded my thoughts "
etc..
Most of the songs I heard represented my feelings I held in for so long..
Of course, these songs are in Japanese and sung by Vocaloids.

Feigning a smile to face the world while hiding my tears. I really want someone to understand but apparently no one does. I really want to cry out loud. Why must I sacrifice my happiness just to please my family ? Why must I put up with every conflicts and my own feelings as a second priority ? I have feelings too.. I am a human too.. Why must you treat me like this ? Not even a single one of you comforted me when I was crying myself to sleep ? You told me not to hate, but this is making me hate him more. I wish you could walk in my shoes and feel how I feel.. You tell me that there is no choice, but you guys are the ones who blocked my second choice. Its driving me insane.. You told me not to hate and cry. If you guys told me not to love, I would become a robot then?! I am afraid I may do some things if I can't tolerate it anymore..

Woot! Finally came back from Jalan Bahtera! Lool. Didn't get to bring my phone ;A;~
~Day 1 was ultimately boring as... the wet weather prevented us from doing some high elements & I didn't get to do the hard rock climbing.. Alot of people gave up, but I wanted to try.. ;A;.. The food was okay.. Lights were out at 11pm and the intructors kept shouting "HUT 2! KEEP QUIET!!" ( Which is my hut xD!! ) Fell asleep at 11.30pm or so..

~Day 2 was really fun! Woke up at 5.30am or so to take a shower and breakfast was at 7.30am. We went for kayaking. It was so fun, but the water was darn dirty and muddy.. I had to throw away the shoes as it was... like shit! XD! After that, it drizzled for a short while when we wentto get changed for another round of high elements. I was the second to try out the log walk.. But then, Instructor Victor ( I think this is his name ) told me to FLAP my hands while walking across the darn shaky log. I wasn't afraid but.. I felt like lol-ing out loud and fall off! xD! Then, my class had lunch duties! xD . Hehe, I screwed up scooping up rice. I took my revenge on Raymond , who purposely added alot of veggies into my rice during day 1 dinner. I gave him rice little by little AHAHAHAA!! xD! After that, we went to have some short general stations and later, outdoor cooking! I barbequed 4 marshmellows aka smores.. Lol, my group had no luck starting the fire and our fire was always so weak. Had to go to the other group's fire to barbeque, where alot of people burned their marshmellows BLACK but inside was so soft..~~ Seems nice to eat but I would get cancer from eating too much burnt food, and it was BURNT BADLY! AHAHAH! Then it rained soooo heavily that we had to skip abseiling ;A; !! Oh well .. D: . Then we did the final prep work for campfire performance... I walked in the rain with Mei Lan and other people to toilet. The rain feels darn good when you are damn sticky and sweaty and hot.
Of course, I was drenched~ But it was so cooling!!~.~ . I wanna do that sometime too!! At 5.30pm, we went to bathe ! FINALLY! :D . Later, we went for dinner and then a short briefing before the campfire about the campfire songs. Lol, Mdm Wong also told us that MR ANG aka acs would be coming.. And yeah, he turned up. Campfire was filled with laughter but I was darn tired. I went to eat supper and brushed my teeth.. Lights were out at 12pm but the campfire ended at 10pm.. I fell asleep like a pig after I curled up in my sleeping bag.
Damn, what a mental torture..

~Day 3 was so slack. I woke up at 5.10am and went to sleep.. and woke up at 5.30am again.. and went to sleep again.. I jumped out when my alarm at 5.45am rang. Damn! LOL! Went to bathe while shivering.. was damn cold when I woke up and had a bad blocked nose.. Breakfast was Nasi Lemak and milo. Assembled in the mini parade square or carpark.. w/e .. and they made us do some cleaning up. Then, I realised I left my dirty shoes at the ground floor of the hut! Damn xD! Oh wells. I saw a cute dog, but when I approached it, it barked and towards me.. I didn't run because of the gate was infront of me~ And I didn't want to have rabies if it bit me. Ew. Slacked around and they made us sit for an hour or so before releasing us. Finally~ And now I am back here~

Haish.. meet-the-parents session is on Thursday!! OH NOOO!! ;A; . My L1B5 and L1B4 was damn bad .. L1B5-15.. L1B4-13 . What can you expect of having a result of 1/2 A's (mostly A2's) , 1 B3 and 3 C5! Damn. All those subjects that DID NOT require studying, i got an A. Those that needed memorising, I got a C. Well.. what to do ;A; . But I heard the streaming is according to our L1B5!! Not level position anymore! OH NO!!! I want to get to 3A.. but chances are slim.. Oh well, better not hope or not I would end up disappointed again..

WOOT! :DD . Exam is finished after my LC at 10.45am - 11.30am ~! AT LAST! :DD!!
Can play and play for awhile~ :D

At last, the long wanted holidays are HERE!
Went to MacDonalds with Wei Lin for breakfast before heading to
school for PUBLIC SPEAKING WORKSHOP-INTERMEDIATE COURSE...
Laughed till my face turned red as usual...
Went home, slacked..
Watch DEATH NOTE 1 again ( gosh, the third time )
and...
FELL ASLEEP due to the cough medicine

Yesterday was the last day of school~
And I got back my PPR~
Was a little shocking that I want to cry..
LOL-ed at my English and kept screaming like siao in my head.
I practically wanted to cry!
My class position and the number of subjects I achieved was..
mindblowing. Didn't expect it..
My MSG was a holy crap of 1.6! L1B5 was 8 !
I didn't expect my CA1 to be that good cause I kinda screwed up some tests.
I only had 1 B3 (ugh, History again)!!
7 Distintions is quite unbelievable for a blur sotong like me.
Bleah, Gotta work harder ~
I want to get to 3A, if its within my capabilities~~
It will be a fierce showdown with the godly 2As who are really good in maths
while my maths is CMI (Cannot make it) ..
Worse of all, Math is double weightage this year, if I am not wrong.
Means 74/100 x2 = 148/200 ( noob sia )..
Got an average of 77.4% = practically every subject A1-A2..
quite a feat, but never enough.
There will be still other people who are better.
It will be best if I am for straight A1-A2s ( 8-10 distintions.. )
I wonder if it will be possible to get A2 for English for SA2..
I wonder if I could maintain my maths at A2 .. or get to A1..?
I don't want to drop to Bs and Cs .. ):
March holidays is a no-no break.
Pre-occupied with :
Public Speaking ( gahs ,prefect. )
Choir Camp (Fortunately or UNFORTUNATELY, its a DAY Camp.. )
Damned homeworks ( Alot to do .. Chinese and Maths!! )
Assessment books ( Yeah, the previous post. )
Holidays is just some days you can stay at home to study or slack a bit.
I wonder if the Sec 4 and 5 are stress.. cause its their 'N / 'O levels THIS YEAR.
I heard that prefect investiture is coming soon too..
I don't want the sec 4 prefects to step down so fast..
some of them are really nice and funny ~~
I wonder if i really got the ad-hoc project.. kinda worried ..
Only one who circled it.. oh damn! its hell for me if I get to be
assistant ad-hoc project .. have to wear that stupid milky skirt and high heels.
Its gotta be hell if you want to climb the stairs!

Choir was well today, but Mr. Lim's teaching methods are little..
gay,hilarious and ridiculous..
Hehe, I couldn't help laughing while singing..
some movements really looked like someone practising wushu while singing ..
HAHAHAHAHA. So we were joking that if he keeps calling us to stand with legs apart,
we should do a split during SYF. Sure get GOLD with Honors~ Haha,
the judge will get sent to hospital also, laugh too much till faint mar~~

Chinese New Year over .. same with Valentines day..
Was chiong-ing assessment books...
If never finish can't revise and throw away >8( .

I have ( Sec 2 assessments ) :
3 Maths books
2 Science books ( one notebook )
2 English books
1 Chinese book

I have ( Sec 1 assessments ) :
1 Science book
1 Math book
1 English book
6 Test papers for Science
5 Test papers for Maths

Total : 22 ( holy sheeze )

This year must complete -.- .
Sec 3 i throw away all le ! LOL

Today uh... nothing fun lei 8(
Just listening to music and facing a ton of books :/
Anyhow filling up the dumb green form and circled 'ad-hoc project' -.-
If no one chooses, I will be DEAD D:
Today Science Practical on Refraction is quite interesting.
Next week die uh, today teacher informed us got test ... 3 tests in 4 periods.. crazy huh ? XD So next week I have 3 tests..
Final tests for CA1 .. :/ ... so fast.
SA1, CA2 and SA2 will be real quick too.. and for those taking O / N levels.

Oh wths XDD~~ Long time no post~
Back to my old self~~ :D
CNY is coming HOORAY \ o3o / !
Common test is coming BOO t-.-'' !
Today suay sia.. forgot to bring Math TB..
In the end copy the whole chapter of Algebra -.-
D: 32 PAGES plus needa solve questions sia..
I rather Miss Ho ask me to do workbook instead D: .
My foolscap paper sure run out de..
Tests marks .. so-so..
History, maybe can fail <- maybe WILL de D: .
Bleah. Slack...~~ XD
Okay go back do le..